My (Belated) Word for 2015
I’m not a New Year’s Resolution kind of a gal… but I do like the idea of choosing one word for the year and letting that be a kind of guide in decision-making and goal-setting, etc.
And I also am a fan of the phrase “Better late than never!”
So… with all that in mind, I’ve decided to go public with the word that I feel God has been speaking to me, in various ways, over the past several months. It’s really a repeated call from Him to me more than a word I’ve “chosen”…
Here it is:
This year, and honestly for the rest of my earthly existence, I want to follow God. I want to learn how to tune into His voice more efficiently and effectively so that I can distinguish His voice from my own and all the other voices and noises around me. I want to take time to rest with Him, to soak Him in, and to truly get to know Him more intimately.
For so much of my life I thought I was a Jesus-follower. I thought I hailed the One True God of the Bible because I really knew Him and wanted others to know Him too.
And I suppose I knew Him as much as I could know Him given my life circumstances, my age, my maturity, my mentors, etc.
But now… after having had the mind-blowing, world-rocking, life-changing experience that I had a few years ago, wherein— perhaps for the first time in my life— I actually felt genuinely empty and desperate and helpless and hopeless, I finally met Him in a way that hit me hard. For the first time, the Truth of Who He Really Is and how He really works torpedoed right into my heart and it spilled over into my real life and habits and relationships in a very real way. As Beth Moore so aptly put it in her Children of the Day Bible study,
“Some of us who have been around awhile could describe extraordinary times when the sense of God’s invading presence was almost our undoing. It unraveled our pretense and left our cover in tatters. As we stood before a God we thought we knew, we suddenly realized that, whoever this God is, He is greater than we thought.”
“I will put breath in you , and you will come to life.
Then you will know that I am the LORD.”
And now I want so much to never again box Him in. To never again live my life from a place of assumption— wherein I think I might possibly know what is best for my own life without consulting Him. I want so much to never again blaze on ahead of Him, cruising on my own steam rather than patiently sitting at His feet, waiting on His promptings, and carefully following wherever it is He leads me.
And hard for me to slow myself down to tune in.
But the alternative is, to me, not worth the risk.
Been there, done that. And I never want to live that way again.
Feel free to pray for me as I try to slow myself, as I try to dial into His Spirit and His Truth and His Word. I am not there yet. But slowly and surely, I am trying to stop striving for Him, but rather to rest in and with Him, to follow His lead and to enjoy Him and this beautiful life He has gifted me with.
“At once they left their nets and followed him.”
“Large crowds followed him, and he healed them there.”
“Follow God’s example, therefore, as dearly loved children, and walk in the way of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God.”
“If you follow my decrees and are careful to obey my commands, I will send you rain in its season, and the ground will yield its crops and the trees their fruit. Your threshing will continue until grape harvest and the grape harvest will continue until planting, and you will eat all the food you want and live in safety in your land. I will grant peace in the land, and you will lie down and no one will make you afraid. I will remove wild beasts from the land, and the sword will not pass through your country. You will pursue your enemies, and they will fall by the sword before you. Five of you will chase a hundred, and a hundred of you will chase ten thousand, and your enemies will fall by the sword before you. I will look on you with favor and make you fruitful and increase your numbers, and I will keep my covenant with you. You will still be eating last year’s harvest when you will have to move it out to make room for the new. I will put my dwelling place among you, and I will not abhor you. I will walk among you and be your God, and you will be my people. I am the Lord your God, who brought you out of Egypt so that you would no longer be slaves to the Egyptians; I broke the bars of your yoke and enabled you to walk with heads held high.”
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What about you?
Is there any particular word or phrase that captures (or is guiding) this season of your life?
Please feel free to share your thoughts or experiences in the comment section below.