Growing in Wrinkles and Wisdom
I came across this photo one of my dear friends took a few months back. And the first thing I noticed when it showed up on my screen was the deep, long wrinkle cascading down my left cheek.
Seriously. That’s a pretty good one, right?
I know, I know: I look pretty darn happy as I laugh at my daughter who is just outside of the camera’s lens also— but, that’s not my point today. My point is that I swear to you that rockin’ wrinkle didn’t exist a few years ago. Look: proof:
Okay, okay. Well maybe there was a hint of a future wrinkle there… but it has definitely become “a thing” on my face recently, right?
Anyway. Here is my point:
I’m getting older.
But also? More exciting?
I’m growing up!!!
It has always been a dream of mine to actually grow in wisdom as I grow older. Oftentimes I meet someone who is older than me and I just assume, given their age or how old their children are or their white hair or the number of wrinkles on their face, that they are smarter, wiser, more skilled, and have more insight than me. I assume that, given the fact they have obviously lived longer than me, they have likely had a lot more life experience than me— and learned and grown from those experiences.
And sometimes that is true. But I’ve also learned that age and wisdom don’t always go hand in hand. I’ve seen it in myself and I’ve seen it in folks I’ve met along the way.
Wisdom is something that must be asked for; it must be chosen and received. Just because I go through a challenging time doesn’t necessarily mean I will be stronger or wiser or more discerning on the other side of that season— I must choose to let God lead and comfort and mold me through my dark times. I must choose to ask Him for insight and help.
In Proverbs 2:1-5, Solomon writes
1 My son, if you accept my words
and store up my commands within you,
2 turning your ear to wisdom
and applying your heart to understanding—
3 indeed, if you call out for insight
and cry aloud for understanding,
4 and if you look for it as for silver
and search for it as for hidden treasure,
5 then you will understand the fear of the Lord
and find the knowledge of God. [bold and italics mine]
You must search for it. You must call out. You must accept it and apply your heart to wisdom… Then it will be yours.
Proverbs 2 goes on to say:
9 Then you will understand what is right and just
and fair—every good path.
10 For wisdom will enter your heart,
and knowledge will be pleasant to your soul.
11 Discretion will protect you,
and understanding will guard you.
I want that. I want understanding and knowledge and discretion. I’m pretty sure that will be helpful in my life.
So. As I continue to grow older and gain more joy-filled wrinkles on my old, happy face… with all my heart I am also on a hunt for Wisdom. I’m seeking God, learning all I can from wise people, digging through all my moments of victory, of heartache and of suffering so that I might find healing and wholeness and understanding. I want to not only grow older, I want to grow wiser as the days and weeks and years march on.
Lord, help me. May Your will be done in and through my life.
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What about you?
What do you want to be like “when you grow up”? How are you embracing (or having a hard time embracing) your aging process?
Please feel free to share your comments or your own journey in the comment section below.