Not My Battle To Fight
I hopped on Facebook real quick to see if a friend of mine had posted anything about the status of her son who had been sick. When I went online I couldn’t help but notice a post in my feed that rubbed me the wrong way: Another example of somebody spouting off about something of which they are completely ignorant.
And, like so many of these types of posts that have been going up recently, this one irked me. Even though it wasn’t about me personally, it was about something that I care deeply about— therefore it felt personal.
I wanted to immediately comment on it to bring a more holistic, educated, “I know from first-hand experience” view point into the mix. But God told me not to. He stayed my eager fingers and told me to take a deep breath and to just keep on scrolling to find out the information for which I had originally hopped online.
“This is not your battle to fight,” He told me.
It is not my job to fix all of the problems I see in the world. It is not even my job to correct certain friends or family members of mine who are spouting off ignorantly, perhaps even stirring up strife of which they are unaware.
A handful of weeks ago I didn’t follow His leading and I didn’t stay my fingers when I saw a post that offended me. I ignored the lack of peace churning in my stomach and, instead, blazed ahead and fought that battle all by myself. And it caused several weeks of drama and unrest in me. And through that, once again, I learned how detrimental it can be when I ignore God’s lead. Through that incident I was reminded how important it is to seek Him, wait for His cue, and then follow His lead.
“The Lord searches every heart and understands every desire and every thought. If you seek him, he will be found by you.” ~1 Chronicles 28:9~
“Your ears will hear a voice behind you saying, ‘This is the way; walk in it.’ ” ~Isaiah 30:21~
Yes – sometimes God does urge me to confront someone or to bring truth to them or to point them in the direction of a knowledgeable book or person that will be able to educate them on what they are concerned about. “Speak the truth in love” is what the Bible advises. And that is good, sound advice. Obviously. But I am finding that lately? God is calling me to hold my tongue more often than not. He’s calling me to more love and not necessarily more “speak.” He’s calling me to more prayer and less “let’s hash this out right here right now.”
God is inviting me deeper into humility. Deeper into surrendering to Him what burdens me. Deeper into taking the path of the low and small. He is inviting me to allow Him to fight my battles. He is inviting me to trust Him –even when He is leading me to do something that may seem illogical or weak. He is inviting me to “follow the peace.” To go when I feel His urge to go, to stop and wait when I don’t feel peace about moving in any particular direction, and to only speak when He is very clearly stirring me to speak.
“The Lord will fight for you. You need only to be still.” ~Exodus 14:14~
This path of following God’s lead: it’s hard. I get it wrong so often. I take matters into my own hands and rush forward, thinking I know what I’m doing, more often than not. Yet He is with me even still. He is there for me, eager to help me get it right this next time. Just as He said in ancient times to His disciples, He continuously invites me to follow Him.
“Come, follow me,” Jesus said. ~Matthew 4:19~
And so I press on. I stand back up after I’ve made a blunder yet again, I look for Him, and I try again. Because no matter what I do, good or bad, patient or rash, obedient or disobedient: He is good, He cares about me, and He is on my side. I need Him.
“The Lord is good, a refuge in times of trouble. He cares for those who trust in him.” ~Nahum 1:7~
[This is Day 30 of the Write 31 Days Challenge. This year my focus is on the role of STORY in our lives. Click here to get to the landing page with links to each post for this series.]
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What about you?
Do you struggle with being either overly confrontational or overly passive? How do you tune into God to figure out what He is urging you to do? What are some verses that help guide you in making those decisions?
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